Yes dear blog readers it has been a while. 3 months almost. I want to say a lot has happened in the 3 months since I last wrote but I would be lying. I have been thoroughly depressed with life.
I have struggled to find work, I have had no adventures or excitement, I have no inspiration to write and it has been a real struggle getting out of bed in the morning. I have even stopped interacting as much on my Twitter travel groups as it is hard to look at what everyone has been doing and the adventures they have been on.
But I am back, well I hope I am. I will not neglect you for so long again that I can promise. It has taken me 3 months to seriously get my act together and pull myself out of the doldrums I was falling into; to get out of the vicious circle of lying in bed watching endless episodes of Community and getting through the new series of Orange is the New Black in 2 days on Netflix, but somehow I have managed it.
What’s caused this downward spiral? The fact that I have started applying for my visa to Canada and let’s put it this way, it is one long depressing journey until I will; if ever get my visa. I totally understand Canada don’t just want to let anyone in and thats a good thing, but at the moment I feel like my life is in this sort of limbo, I no longer belong in the UK and feel like my life can’t properly start until I am in Canada. It makes it harder as all my friends are over there. I can’t start a permanent job in the UK and no one wants to hire temps anymore and I am living back at home which is sometimes a struggle (sorry mum but you know it too).
Not sure if any of you have gone through getting a visa but it is one of the most stressful things l have done and I am not even halfway through the process. So I have completed the English test (yep seriously I had to do an English test and I am English!), sent my qualifications over to Canada to have the assessed, filled forms in with my work experience and other criteria and now I am stuck in this “pool”.
Being in the pool is a good thing but I can also be in it for over a year and the only way I can see myself getting out of the pool is if some lovely person offers me a job or I get enough points for an invitation to apply when they do these draws twice a month, which as far as I can see is like winning the lottery!
So that is where I am at the moment, stuck. I have been applying for jobs in Vancouver but I know that I am in that age old Catch 22 situation, where no one wants to employ someone who doesn’t have the right to work in Canada, yet I can’t get into Canada without a job offer. It is thoroughly depressing.
I am back in Vancouver for a holiday for a month and to do a bit of networking. I have loads of contacts but at the moment nothing has come from them and there are times when I think maybe I should just give up on the dream of living here, but that thought makes my heart ache and me teary eyed. This is the first time in my life where I have wanted something so badly yet I am at the will of a foreign government and people to help me to get in and it doesn’t help I am not the most patience person when it comes to things like this either.
I guess all I can do is hope and wait and remain positive that it will happen one day!